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Life Verse: 2 Timothy 4:17
Current Term: January 10, 2018 - June 10, 2018
Since: Mar 2016
My Life Story, how does one put 29 years of life into words? I will try. Let me begin with this: “Life is difficult for me, it always has been.”
I was born in the United States, but moved to Germany when I was only 2 years old with my 6 siblings. I was raised by my father and step-mother. I didn’t have a relationship with my biological mother until I reached out to her when I was 20 years old. Growing up I was always familiar with Jesus through my father’s influence. He moved to Germany so that he could play professional basketball and provide for me and my siblings. We had professional athletes move in and out of our home continuously, we never settled down, or made lasting friendships, saved photo albums or special souvenirs, or had our special vacation spots. Regardless, I felt loved, but at the same time I also felt lost, lonely, and continuously searching for guidance.
At the age of 15, on a sunny summer day, we left Germany to visit our grandmother in California; yet, little did I know I would never return to my home in Germany. Being uprooted suddenly from everything I knew was a huge culture-shock, my first language was German, I didn’t know up from down and entering middle school in the United States was chaotic for me emotionally. I had my many struggles and could not grasp why life was so difficult.
We attended church every Sunday and finally, at the age of 15 I came to know Jesus by name. I will never forget the eye-opening, heart opening day. I felt lost in this new country, but Christ gave me comfort that I was no longer alone that he was and is always watching over me.
As life continued I began to experience many trials and tribulations: struggling relationship with my parents, my siblings, losing friendships, my husband’s call and his condition and limitations, my children’s needs and my inability to communicate clearly. To be honest, internally things are often still chaotic to this day life in my mind. But I stand (some days I sit, some days I am wiped out) BUT now I know that one day He will wipe every tear, there will be no more death' or mourning or crying or pain, one day! And that knowledge makes all the difference…
Fast forward until today, Jesus saved me from hopelessness. There was a time in my life, when I didn’t know if life was worth it – carrying so many burdens was stealing my joy, and sometimes it still steals my joy. “But the Lord stood by me and strengthened me, so that through me the message might be fully proclaimed and all the Gentiles might hear it. So I was rescued from the lion’s mouth." 2 Timothy 4:17
The Lion’s mouth is always just around the bend, trying, probing, and taping my shoulder attempting to steal my joy, but I have hope! Hope that my life is not for nothing, that my struggles, my suffering, my inabilities are not for nothing! The Father chose me, to walk this walk and wherever He may take me; I know He will be by my side.
By His will alone, I have been given the beautiful gift of two amazing children, as well as my husband of almost 10 years. If I could pray, but one prayer for those I come into contact with; is that the Lord would guide and help them to be all that God has called them to be. Yes life is chaotic, but have HOPE; Jesus is near.
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My hope for MMCM is stored deep within my heart :).